Silence

I have sat in silence stewing over with things for the past few days so I need to let them out now. I don't know whats happening but I dont appreciate feeling like a cast away. Don't start something you don't intend on finishing. Don't complain about something that you could fix if you could be bothered. Don't hide away for no reason...not the best feeling to experience...

So yes, I'm going to sit here in silence and continue to think about everything...

Yes...you heard me...

I would shout it off of a rooftop if I wasn't afraid of heights....

I LOVE YOU

I would write it all over town if the cops wouldn't catch me...

I LOVE YOU

I would hold you close and never let go if love was the only thing we needed to survive...because...

I LOVE YOU!!!

just thought I migh write it here because its driving me insane not letting it out...

Take my breathe away

All wounds take time to heal. Its funny how when left with our own thoughts for long enough, a wound can begin to seep. I woke up this morning with a chris brown song in my head and all day I have been thinking about past emotions attatched to that song. As much as that song hurts me, I long to listen to it. It's almost like I want to think about the memories, so that I can be thankful for what I have now. I have had a couple day dreams today about red roses...maybe I'm going to recieve one soon, who knows. Im thinking that right now in this state of mind, would be the perfect time for a slow dance. Come find me, take my breathe away....

Thankyou

Its not very often people take the time to say thankyou. We may appreciate things or people in life but never really say it when it truly means the world to some people. I want to thank life in general for the things I love about my life.

Thankyou for giving me a loving bunch of family and friends with whom I can share some of the fondest memories. Thankyou for the ability to love unconditionally and persevere through some of life hardest challenges with love as one of my main inspirations. Thankyou for the determination and will power to become a better person, to never give up on the fight no matter how hard it may seem at times and thankyou for putting people in my life that I love and adore. Without them, the world would not be as pleasant.

Hugs and Kisses

Smile!

OK...So I'm at my "happy place" now so sorry everyone for my raging last night :( i'll try to refrain from catching up on a weeks worth of posts and such negative ones...but I needed to vent :( love and hugs xx

ME! deal with it.

I AM ME.

I LOVE :

 - Dancing, singing and kissing in the rain

 - Believing in myself when no one else does

 - The thought of being happy

 - Making dreams come true

I HATE:

 - People who's aim in life is to piss people off and hurt them because they find it amusing.

 - People who walk over you because they know your too weak to say anything.

 - People that think they can get away with making people feel like death would be more appealing.

PET HATES ARE:

 - People engaging in comversations, using conversation closers constantly.

 - People calling me short.

 - People having stabs at others than laughing it off as if it was a joke. Don't say it if that be the case.

 - People correcting my typos. Yes I stuff up like most people do but dont be so damn picky >__<

 - Talking about my personal life with people I don't feel comfortable with or that make me feel awkward.

 - Being yelled at. Talk. If you can't do that then don't bother trying to talk to me.

I could keep writing more, but this will do for now...I needed to vent and thats 3 posts to make up for 4ish that I havent posted. Im now searching for love in my doona...night all

mixed ramble cont.

ugh. I want to vent so im going to do it here. I just want to rage. Someone starts an argument then leaves before we can finish it. Im so angry it reducing me to tears of frustration. Oh for the love of cyberspace. Im sick of feeling like everyone else overpowers my emotions and controls them. This is ridiculous. I shouldn't be the one crying. I was so happy at the start of today...counting down to go see the one person who makes my day...now that buzz has been replaced with the urge to punch something. I can't believe I gave up punching walls a while back. If i was still doing that I would of done so alot of times lately. That or someones face. I have had the urge to kill some people lately...I shouldn't have to get so angry and vent like this. Another thing that bugs me is that people think they can walk over me and treat me like a slave. Go find a doormat to walk over, I'm not in the mood. I could keep writing here but enough about this rant stuff...I think I might post a list....these posts are definately making up for not posting lately...